delay that gratification

I realised the difference , skill , talent will help , personality will help but only to a extent ....What matters most is how much can u work , how long can u persevere , how long can u keep going , how often will u delay instant gratification , these are the most important factors that will determine success ....As a student I had realised this and tried to stick to this , the more u delay gratification the more successful u will be . Kill the boy within you and let the man be born.....

a narrative about self

Recently my friend shared a post on how people tell stories and how they potrya themselves in those stories reveals a lot about themselves ....Some are heros in their stories , some are victims , the narrative about self goes on to create your personality ......And so the author says he will have stories in which he is happy .......Can that really help m sitting.on a Friday morning dreading office work ,,this has become a routine now every morning the dread a sinKing feeling in the stomach, how I envy people who have lot of friends and look forward to being in office , why am.i not that enthusiastic ......Is it lethargy or is it some.thing deeper , I don't trust my self enough to give me the luxury of thinKing this is something deeper , m too busy repeating the narration that I have heard from everyone , you are lazy, lethargic . Secondly I have observed that I am too distracted am not living in the present , when am physically present mentally am far off thinking something else. This habit of ruminating thoughts is a big contributor to stress.....Your though t and action have to be aligned for you to be at peace ....It's not been happening for quite some time now . Even while.meditating I was far off mentally 

Do.i quit this all for.mental peace and go away or.do I stay and fight ....Will I learn to overcome these thought habits .